5 years ago tomorrow I lost my wonderful grandmother. She was absolutely one of my best friends and one of the most amazing women I have ever met! She had the hardest life, born into poverty with a screwed up "family life", abandoned by who she thought was her father when he went off to war, child abuse, her only sibling Buzz committed suicide after returning from Vietnam, she married her high school sweetheart and had 2 kids only to be left 20 years later for her best friend. After all of that she was the most compassionate, loving person I have ever met. She never said a bad thing about ANYONE...."hate" was not in her vocabulary and she quickly removed it from ours when she heard us say it! In 2003 she was diagnosed with Leukemia and after a very courageous battle she passed away on January 13th, 2004. On January 11th she slipped into a coma. She was home, we all had a chance to say our goodbyes. I spent a good deal of the morning of the 13th and the previous day in bed next to her. Just holding onto her, brushing what little hair had managed to grow back after the chemo, and trying to memorize the way her hands looked, the way she smelled, the lines on her face, the softness of her skin. Hospice was there with a chaplin and my mom, my sister, and I were in the room with her and the chaplin. The chaplin was amazing and shared our faith. She held my grandma's hand and told her she was beautiful and reminded her of St. Anne, Mary's mother. She asked if we would sing the Hail Mary with her, we all joined hands and started singing. As we sang, "Amen" my grandmother exhaled for the last time. It was the most beautiful way to die. We were so so so heart broken that she was gone but so thankful that she was at peace. An extraordinary women deserved nothing less than an extraordinary moment like that! Our heart break continues after 5 years. We miss her terribly each day and especially on special occasions. She was the rock of our family and nothing has really seemed "right" since she left us. This is something that I wrote last year and gave to my grandfather and mom in a frame with a picture of her.
LOVE
Love is...Wide tanned feet in purple Birkenstocks
Love is...Sleepovers with popcorn watching Jeopardy and Golden Girls
Love is...A shoebox full of costume jewlery and a closet full of high heels
Love is...Always behind the camera lens but never in front of it.
Love is...Lazy summer days lounging by the pool eating green grapes
Love is...Tomatoes and cucumbers fresh from the garden
Love is...Vanilla pudding in Cool Whip before it was commercial
Love is...Fruit salad in a larger than life green Tupperware bowl
Love is...Gas money left in the jar
Love is...Ritz crackers, cheddar cheese and salami after school
Love is...The scent of jasmine and orchids on a hot Hawaiian afternoon
Love is...Telling the monkeys to get out of your hair
Love is...Wacky dangly earrings
Love is..."Catywhompis"
Love is...Orange juice on the ceiling
Love is...A snack drawer
Love is...Being everyone's "grandma"
Love is...Hands soft as velvet always ready to help
Love is...a soft body in a chartreuse green shirt
Love is...Sharon Lenora Stockwell